I'm still in love with my first love :( !!!!?

I am a 24 yo female. I met him during my 1st year junior high & the first thing I thought of him when I met him was "annoying" lol..but that changed quickly as the weeks went by. Slowly I started falling for him. He was sweet, charming, funny, & smart. Growing up I was insecure with myself & VERY shy & not many freind in school. They would exclude me in cl & I felt like the outcast esp since I was the only spanish girl in my cles. I really felt he was falling for me too. We had all our cles togther & that meant more time together. He was my only friend that meant alot to me. All the other boys picked on me & teased me of my weight & race. (the school was a majority of caucasians) He wasnt like that & that's what I loved about him. We graduated & went onto high school but seperated taking diff. cles..eventually he found me at lunch time & we started talking again. This is where it all fell apart ;( I knew wee were getting closer where he would make the first move. I knew it in my heart he would. I was afraid to fall in love..I thought to myself "why me"of all the beautiful girls here why me..he was this gorgeous surfer kid with blonde hair so sweet, nice, & so good to me pick me? I wasnt fat but not skinny just in between plus being hispanic didnt help at all. I was a girl & growing up my parents were very strict with me (no boyrfriends, wasnt able to go out, had to cook, clean, watch my brothers)..so I did something i thought would be the best for me & him which killed me!! :*( I gave hime the cold shoulder one day & never spoke to him afterwards..i was afraid if we werent going to make it work or my parents out i would be in trouble or heartbroken because I loved him..He was sad & tried to talk to me but i would ignore him..I TOTALLY REGRET B/C IM STILL IN LOVE! I've been depressed sometimes & it hasnt helped me at all..I put on some weight.I know he's still in the area..what if i see him one day!! Would he talk to me after all these years?